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Things That Have Made Me Happy ....
Posted on September 23rd, 2009 at 09:44
....in the last 7 days.
Hanging out with the boys, spending....3.5 hours?...playing all the songs in Beatles Rock Band, and Justin telling me I'm a rock star. I'm really gonna miss that guy. (For people who don't know, Justin is a long-time friend of Patrick's and he's moving to San Jose this week.)
Playing on a co-ed basketball team with friends. 0-2 so far (and let me tell you, the games weren't close), but mostly I'm happy that I have friends to play basketball with!
My Mom and Erin cheering us on from the bleachers on Sunday even though the game oh-so-quickly became about "personal goals", as Sara would say ("Come on guys, double digits by half time, DOUBLE DIGITS BY HALF TIME!!")
Finally getting rid of the old couch and making $20.
My Mom. She's a fantastic lady and should visit more often.
Making small batches of pickles and dilly beans with my Mom and Erin, even though two of the pickle jars didn't seal.
Having a ridiculously good natured cat who's always ready for a good head-butt.
Hanging out with the boys, spending....3.5 hours?...playing all the songs in Beatles Rock Band, and Justin telling me I'm a rock star. I'm really gonna miss that guy. (For people who don't know, Justin is a long-time friend of Patrick's and he's moving to San Jose this week.)
Playing on a co-ed basketball team with friends. 0-2 so far (and let me tell you, the games weren't close), but mostly I'm happy that I have friends to play basketball with!
My Mom and Erin cheering us on from the bleachers on Sunday even though the game oh-so-quickly became about "personal goals", as Sara would say ("Come on guys, double digits by half time, DOUBLE DIGITS BY HALF TIME!!")
Finally getting rid of the old couch and making $20.
My Mom. She's a fantastic lady and should visit more often.
Making small batches of pickles and dilly beans with my Mom and Erin, even though two of the pickle jars didn't seal.
Having a ridiculously good natured cat who's always ready for a good head-butt.
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Sometimes I forget how many good things I have in my life! I should (should, but probably won't because that's how I roll) make a habit of going over the highlights of my week. There are always highlights, even on the worst weeks. Even if they are the same highlights as the week before. Even if the highlight is just that I made it through. I really get caught up in the "But I don't have THAT many friends...." and the "But I don't like my job..." and the "But all the jars didn't even seal...." sentences. Failure is something that I feel is so close all the time and it scares the be-GEEEEEZES out of me. Trying is hard. Failing sucks. Not being good at something is frustrating. Not understanding how is annoying. Not comparing my life and abilities and accomplishments to everyone else is nearly impossible (for me). Being almost 25 before I feel like I'm ready to be 25 is terrifying! I really, really, really want to have a good birthday this year. I don't want to cry and be sad like last year. Yesterday that didn't really seem possible because I already felt like crying. Then I stayed up too late playing Beatles Rock Band with Patrick, Mike, and Justin and now today it seems a little more possible. I guess we'll see! Stay tuned.